If you are, you breath. If you breath,
you talk. If you talk, you ask. If you ask, you think.
If you think, you search. If you search, you experience.
If you experience, you learn. If you learn, you grow.
If you grow, you wish. If you wish, you find. If you find, you doubt.
If you doubt, you question. If you question, you understand.
If you understand, you know. If you know, you want to know more…
And if you want to know more, you are alive…
-Someone

Rome is burning, he said
as he poured himself another drink
yet here I am, knee-deep in a river of pussy

Here it comes, she thought,
another self-indulgent, whiskey-soaked diatribe
about how fucking great everything was in the past
and how all us poor souls born too late
to see the Stones at wherever
or snort the good coke like they had at studio 54
well, we had all just missed out
on practically everything worth living for
and the worst part was, she agreed with him

here we are she thought, at the edge of the world
the very edge of western civilization
and all of us are so desperate to feel something
anything
that we keep falling into each other
and fucking our way to the end of days.
-californication

People tend to say
That remembering hurts
But forgetting is just as painful

I can't remember
Exactly what shade of blue
Your eyes were

I can't remember
What it felt like
When I held you

I can't remember
The tone of your voice
When you laughed

I can't remember
How your mouth tasted
When I kissed you

I can't remember
The sparkle in your eyes
When you looked at me

I can't remember
The curves of your body
As my hands traced them

I can't remember
Why we agreed
We were better off alone

go after her. fuck, dont sit there and wait for her to call, go after her because thats what you should do if you love someone, dont wait for them to give you a sign cause it might never come, dont let people happen to you, dont let me happen to you, or her, shes not a fucking television show or tornado. there are people i might have loved had they gotten on the airplane or run down the street after me or called me up drunk at 4 in the morning because they need to tell me right now and because they cannot regret this and i always thought id be the only one doing crazy things for people who would never give enough of a fuck to do it back or to act like idiots or be entirely vulnerable and honest and making someone fall in love with you is easy and flying 3000 miles on 4 days notice because you cant just sit there and do nothing and breathe into telephones is not everyones idea of love but it is the way i can recognize it because that is what i do. go scream it and be with her in meaningful ways because that is beautiful and that is generous and that is what loving someone is, that is raw and that is unguarded, and that is all that is worth anything, really.