My vice
My real vice
has always been the vice of perfection
this despicable vice
of finding diamonds
among filth and infection.

And my pleasure
my only real pleasure
has come from loving & not needing possession.
It has come from these wounds,
still open, still deep , bleeding wounds
which I earned while fighting my obsession.

It´s an horrible vice
It´s the deepest of pleasures
It´s sad,
but the story of this life 
was a story of deception.